Just in a quiet mood today and Eden isn’t in a good mood either. Today is meh, they found the body of that girl today kinda sad honestly I wish I could have helped but there’s nothing that could have been done. As the day draws closer I’m getting more sad that Eden is going back to school but she will at least be happy there
It’s Christmas, I found out I didnt need to work today thankfully. I’m just feeling meh today I’m not even in the mood to talk to my parents. My dad hurt his back and won’t let me help with anything. My grandma could barely make it up the stairs, and my mom is just being mom. Eden isn’t talking to me much today Some days I think she hates me or is super upset with stuff going on such as not being back in school etc. I love her so much though and if she needs to talk to me about anything I’m there for her however she doesn’t all the time because she thinks I’ll get upset idk the only thing that really upsets me is when she’s upset cuz I wanna fix it
Talked to Eden about some of the stuff going on that’s having my mind do laps. I hope she tells me what’s bugging her. I think rory is a major issue along with being trapped in the house cus her dad doesn’t want her to drive. I’ve also been less than pleasant the past couple weeks. I havent commutes to exercise either which I feel like shit about too. I feel better talking to her though. I’m glad she at least somewhat gets my profession my job from the second I put a uniform on my stress increases and it’s very hard to compartmentalize all my feelings thoughts and emotions and to talk about stuff because everything happens so fast. I honsetly don’t think I’ve cried in a long time and everything sort of came out. Eden is the reason I wake up every morning to be honest that’s how much she positively impacted me and I will do anything For her ❤️
